Last Appointment

I have about two days left before I go for my next medical appointment in Cancer Centre. Man, time really flies when you're well and about; but crawls when you're down and unwell. However, I really hope that this will be one of my last appointments I'll make with the doctor regarding my chemotherapy appointments and treatments. All these days of struggling and discomforts have been driving me to the point of insanity that I even fear each treatment that is to come. Because everytime each treatment is over, I'll have different side effects; and pains, and discomforts, and aches all over. I'll lose appetites and weights, sleeps, as well as my mind! Sigh, thankfully I didn't lose my spirit.

This friday is my next treatment. Last one I hope; I pray; I ask; whatever... I just wanna break free from this nightmare, defeat this last stronghold of darkness and then call it a life. I won't wanna touch this again. It hurts. It just hurts so much. But I thank God for this. It taught me a lot of things.

It taught me to value things - to cherish; to hold on to; to love; to accept; to understand. And there're more than just that alone. This is a great turning point in my life. This will be unforgettable and greater events are yet to take place. As for now, all I do is pray that my tumour in my lymph will be eradicated completely and forever, so that I won't have to go for the 7th or the 8th chemotherapy treatments again. I have had enough! And I'm sick and tired of having to put up with those side effects I'm suffering! I pray it'll just STOP there! Period!