Post-service Testimony
Hi all, as I was watching the online service yesterday, the praise and worship was great! I could hardly put it into words. As I closed my eyes, I could feel some spirit trying to tell me something and also remind me. This was what I felt...
When we ask God into our lives, we tend to have an intention of wanting a better life. A life full of blessings, a life filled with joy, a life without much problems. Sometimes, we tend to "curse & swear" (complain) when problems do arise. But really, as far as I believe, two-third of the times when we are believers, we face tribulations. And only one-third of the times we enjoy peace and serenity. There were times I sat and thought to myself: Why do I need God for? What purpose does it serve?
Why do I need God? Long ago, when I accepted Christ, my reasons were immature. I thought that when I have God, I will have many blessings - which is true though. I also thought that when I have God, my life will be better than my childhood days - which is also true, no doubt. I thought, again, that when I have God, I would be able to get rid of my hot-temper and lack of self-control - which is again, true, without second thought. But I didn't know, is that all these five years, I faced more problems than I ever imagined. I had difficulty dealing with my insecurities, my personalities, people and situations around me. It was very tough and sometimes I lost His presence, so I did things according to my own will and power. As a result, I grew even more egoistical, and lacking more in self-control. Then, often, I got into trouble. Now, I realised that full dependence on God is vital. I need God not only because He can bless me, or make my life better than the past, but it is only during dark times, only during war and recessions, that my faith in Him is tested, and only then, that my character is being moulded because God commits to character-building.
I then came to know that before we even know God, we faced many problems. After we know God, we face EVEN more problems. It is not the end; it is only the beginning. However, God says, "Fear not, for I am with you always till the end of the age.". So I cling on to this reminder as I am walking through this valley I'm in now, and continue to keep the faith, which is the one and only thing that I have left.
When we ask God into our lives, we tend to have an intention of wanting a better life. A life full of blessings, a life filled with joy, a life without much problems. Sometimes, we tend to "curse & swear" (complain) when problems do arise. But really, as far as I believe, two-third of the times when we are believers, we face tribulations. And only one-third of the times we enjoy peace and serenity. There were times I sat and thought to myself: Why do I need God for? What purpose does it serve?
Why do I need God? Long ago, when I accepted Christ, my reasons were immature. I thought that when I have God, I will have many blessings - which is true though. I also thought that when I have God, my life will be better than my childhood days - which is also true, no doubt. I thought, again, that when I have God, I would be able to get rid of my hot-temper and lack of self-control - which is again, true, without second thought. But I didn't know, is that all these five years, I faced more problems than I ever imagined. I had difficulty dealing with my insecurities, my personalities, people and situations around me. It was very tough and sometimes I lost His presence, so I did things according to my own will and power. As a result, I grew even more egoistical, and lacking more in self-control. Then, often, I got into trouble. Now, I realised that full dependence on God is vital. I need God not only because He can bless me, or make my life better than the past, but it is only during dark times, only during war and recessions, that my faith in Him is tested, and only then, that my character is being moulded because God commits to character-building.
I then came to know that before we even know God, we faced many problems. After we know God, we face EVEN more problems. It is not the end; it is only the beginning. However, God says, "Fear not, for I am with you always till the end of the age.". So I cling on to this reminder as I am walking through this valley I'm in now, and continue to keep the faith, which is the one and only thing that I have left.
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