Lonely Christmas

It's christmas today. And I'm just feeling a little lonely. It's just like another day to me although I know that it's Christ's birthday... but so what? I can't help but to feel this way.. I used to believe in miracles, gifts, and surprises... but not now... all my christmas are just plain festival that anyone would go through... nothing special this year, last year or whatever... Next year? I don't wanna expect it 'cos all this while things are just SO f*ck*ng boring and there's nothing special every christmas anyway. I'm f*ck*ng off. Are you? Excuse me, I'm in a little bad mood today...

*sobs* *sobs*